Have you ever just sat down and looked at your life and where you are at and where you want it to go?

I seem to be doing that a lot lately! I’m here finally at an amazing job but it’s in a small town .. I havent met anyone here except for the people I work with. I have been keeping myself busy by cleaning, working out .. I’ve taken up yoga and absolutely love it. I have also picked up another job , I am just wanting to make money and pay off my debts and save save save! A good friend of mine and I are hoping to go to New York in the Spring! I’m really hoping it works! I’m going to see how my schedule is and then hopefully be working as much as possible so I can make as much as possible and get on my trip! I wanna be on the positive side of the spectrum for once because right now I’m definitely not.

I’ve learnt a huge lesson … not to leave bills in other peoples hands as it has now sewered me. I’m paying off my debts and getting my life positive and going. I can’t wait, I’m going to be working so much and Im actually super excited for it . My life is not where I want it to be right now I want to be in a big city working major market and I’m going to get the drive and do my best everyday at work and get there! Im going to be rehersed for every newscast, I need to build relationships with the people in the community so I can have more local stories .. Ive almost got the newsroom re organized so it can go forward… I think it was a dump room for the old station manager to put his stuff in… it’s still going to be quite the process. I have a lot to do. I can’t wait to get my business cards and have everything ready to go!

On a happier note it is my favourite month! MLB post season is officially underway and of course my Yankees are in the AL race .. But really what else is new! Lol! So far they are looking pretty good Robi Cano drove in 6 RBIs in Game 1! Game 2.. My Derek Jeter got an error and caused a balk! WTF! I know not something you hear much about.

Another part of October that I absolutely love is NHL regular season starts! The countdown is on officially 4 more days until official puck drop. I’m a little nervous for the Flames this year… There is a new GM thank goodness.. Lee Stempniak is a great pick up however.. The teams not getting any younger and there are no prospects really coming up. The flames need to finish low for the next couple of years and get some good draft picks I think and go into a rebuilding phase. However, Feaster seems to think it’s going to be a good season ! Id be stoked to see the boys in the playoffs but April will tell! I’m stoked for Hockey all the time again… working in a sports lounge I’m going to be a happy girl!

Finally NFL season is upon us! So far it’s been quite frustrating.. As a cowboys fan… Romo’s fractured rib isn’t helping him so much… Hes living up to his choke artist ways… 18 points total in the Monday nighter and all were field goals kicked , this week they had the lead and whoops Choko Romo is up to his old antics as they lost to the Detroit Lions.. Who loses to the Lions! Im happy to see Mike Vick back… he sprained his hand last week but he’s back and playing well , its unfortunate he got all wrapped up in the whole dog thing… he’s so talented! it’s a waste for him not to be playing ball.

So overall life is picking up I guess… I’m back to normal with being single again. After a year of not being I’m looking at my life now and I am so much better off without him.. I can’t believe I put up with that for so long! I don’t know if/ when I’ll be willing to date anytime soon but hey time will tell! My guard is back up and really it’s not going to be easy for me to let someone in and really I will have a zero bullshit policy… Another lesson I have learnt and am standing my ground from now on! I’m working on me and my happiness and if they don’t fit it then too bad. I’m excited for my new adventure!

I was reading my blog and saw my list I’ve checked off a couple!
Well the Tan .. not so much.. When I make more money.. I’ll be hitting the tanning bed! I did hit Jib successfully haha probably the funniest video of my life! I have lost almost 30 lbs since Christmas I want about 5 or 10 more to go. I have a lot of me time since I’ve moved and know no one in this town. It’s great I love it. I need to find my battery charger so I can take more pictures! I want to save up for a telephoto lens camera! Take tons of pictures for my walls J . I am currently saving for a big trip! NYC is the plan I need to see new yankee stadium I’ll need that camera for then! I cook for myself all the time now! Italian dishes are my favorite of course oh and Ma found a great rib recipe that I love to make! I am trying for my independence .. With in a year I know I will be! And my hair I am workin on it! It’s quite the process. It’s getting there though I have been taking good care of it and am not colouring it until I go to NYC!

I absolutely love fall!

HotCocoa.
Scarves. CrispAir.
Boots. Browns. DeepRedNails.
Uggs. Tights&Sweaters. Hockey. Leaves.
Sunsets. HarvestMoons. PumpkinSpiceLattes. PumpkinPie.Burberry
Thanksgiving.Football. Skating. LondonFogs. Beanies. Toques.Mittens.FallFashion
XXRuby

Oh I am also loving bows at the moment

Life as of late!

So I'm off on a new adventure!
New Job.. New Life.. New trying to find me and turning my dreams into plans!
So first things first.
The Job!
I'm a morning show co-host and news anchor for a Country radio station! Oh it is great! The company I am working for is
absolutely amazing! They actually care about their employees, I feel like i actually mean something to them and I'm appreciated.
It's great! The people are a lot younger and have great attitudes! It's inspiring.

New Life..
So I up and left the puddle! I left everything and everyone behind excpt for my clothes. The movers are going to my old
place sometime this week to pick up the rest ( or shall i say ALL of my things) I can't wait to decorate my new place and make it mine. I currently am sitting on my air mattress as I type leaning up against the wall. Yes it is tough.. went for groceries last night.. had to buy a single spoon fork and knife for cutlery. and a skillet so I can make stuff. Salad is a great thing to have when you dont have much! it's easy! So as well as in my new life.. Im going for HEALTH
I'm working out on a daily basis and am starting to actually see results. Since December I have lost a total of 26 pounds
I have 9 more to go and I couldn't be happier or more driven. I have a goal and I need to reach it. Im currently on what
we call the 30 day shred! A daily circuit workout in which Jillian Michael's kicks my ass! I am having issues moving however no pain
no gain. I want to be healthy I want to be toned I want to look good feel good. My body is in its prime right now
so I should be treating it better. I have cut down on my drinking which has really helped. I hydrate my body and my skin
rather than suck the life out of it with booze and hangover food. MY face is starting to clear up and I feel a lot better
about myself. I'm surrounding myself with positive things and it's helping out a lot!

New trying to find me ...
I still feel sorta lost still... I'm in a new town new fresh start right? .. I'm so alone up here I've had so much time to
myself I should be able to find me right... I just want to be in Toronto and working on TV and get to where I want to be where I'm not
living from paycheque to paycheque... i want to own my own home and have a place to keep a dog! I have all these dreams
I want to become plans but they are just taking forever. I am not a patient person I need to learn how to be!

Not as long as usual! I'll post tomorrow about the last two weeks in the puddle! My Fasha Stepmom and sister came to visit! It great and I took them to one of the most beautiful places in the world! More tomorrow But I am dead tired and need to get some sleep 4am comes quick!!

If you read leave some love

xx Ruby

busy as a bee

family

it's something that so many people take for granted. This past weekend was my mom's side family reunion.. and I missed it. While here in the puddle I was talking with some of my buddies about how much I wish I could have been there.. I could've seen Tilly, B, and Stella... My Ma, stepdad and Batman... Totally Tony and his family ( I lived with them for a year.. they are immediate family).. My mom's sisters... the Brandhams ( extended family but I'm close with) but the one person I would've loved to see would have been my Great Uncle Guido. He's my Grandpa's brother... he's the only one left...

I was really close with my grandpa.. we did everything together when I would go down to the farm.. we were stuck like glue. He taught me to do lots of things in life. He taught me life lessons as we drove around the fields in his truck. He was honest with me and I was honest with him. He taught me to play baseball and we shared the love of the Yankees.He taught me how to shoot the gun he'd look at me and say "Annie go get your gun" and I'd go grab it from the gun case and off we were shooting gophers or shooting the tins off the fence posts for practice. He taught me about wheat .. how to know when it was ready and when it wasn't .. he worried about me.. when my parents split up he would call me and my sister .. just to make sure we were ok. Til and I were very lucky to have the relationship we did with Grandma and Grandpa Pontarollo.. Mama and Papa... Til was Grandma's and I was Grandpa's .. and everyone in town knew it. Til and I would spend our time down there with them whether it was reading the comics with Grandpa and the word searches.. gonig out to the garden with Grandma (when she had the big one ) and eating carrots, lettuce, radishes and corn for dinner /... obviously sneaking in fresh carrots and peas and ruining our dinner but hey when your a kid thats how it goes. Til and I loved our time down there we always had something to do .. Gram and Gramps only had 3 channels so TV wasn't really much of an option only really for the 11:00 news.. it was good though we got to enjoy the little things in life.. when there were sheep on the farm we were determined to catch them or collect lambs tails ( yes, I took them in for show and tell) ... we'd go up on the hill and play in the rocks or watch the hill for coyotes... There were days when Grandpa and I would just go for a drive.. we'd listen to country music and just drive the country... I loved haying season .. I was too little to drive the tractor by myself cuz I didn't weigh enough was Grandpa's excuse .. but I got to ride in the tractor with him all day long.. of course yapping his ear off but he didn't care. He'd yap mine off right back... one summer Ma took us down there with proper manners and English and we came back saying "huh?" and "What" ... Grandpa got after me for saying Pardon all the time he said it was a stupid word.. so I stopped saying it and copied him with "huh?" ...When I was 14 Grandpa got sick... the doctors said he got bell's palsy and the side of his face became paralyzed.. we went down there for teacher's convention to visit and as soon as I saw him I got really scared... I knew he didn't have long.. On March 26th we were all at home and Grandma called late ( as she always did) and Mom sat down on the hearth in front of the fire place as soon as she said what happened I knew something happened with Grandpa.. he had fallen down and couldn't get up and was in the hospital. Mom made me go to school the next day because I had a field trip to the museum that day.. They moved Grandpa up to the Foothills Hospital in Calgary ... I went and saw him as much as I could we would just sit there.. I had to make sure my homework was done if I wanted to visit him tho... I would be doing my homework on the bus on the way home from school so I could go spend time with him... he would try and talk to me and would get frustrated because his mouth wouldn't work.. it was as tough for me to handle it as it was for him I think.. Grandpa was a proud strong man.. he was the oldest of the Pont boys and the man everyone looked up to.. to see the Man of my dreams .. the most influential in my life laying there in a bed.. sick.. helpless and dying and not being able to do anything about it ... it killed me.. They eventually moved Grandpa back down to Cardston after they operated and made him comfortable ... he had cancer and there was nothing they could do to help it ... We got the call that he was burning up and didn't have long.. Til and I were out for the day and Mom and Stepdad were in Saskatoon with Totally Tony... we got Tils BF at the time to drive us down to Cardston and Mom and SD and everyone ripped to Alberta ( they got stuck in a construction zone and finally one of the workers came to talk to them.. they told them what was going on and they needed to get there and all traffic stopped and they were on their way.. it amazes me still today how great some people in the world are and how compassionate).. we got to the hospital and Gramps was just shaking but sweating at the same time... I looked at Grandma and the look I'll never forget I knew.. We just hungout until the Sunday.. and that's when Grandpa told Grandma to send us home.. he didn't want us to see him get any worse..I bawled I didn't want to leave.. I knew what was going on.. When I went into say goodbye..I hugged him said "I love you so much I don't want you to leave,I'm gonna miss you so much" and he looked at me and said " I love you too kid ... you're gonna be alright .. Be a good Kid and be good for Grandma.. you're gonna do good in whatever you do" he looked me straight in the eye and his eyes welled up with tears I hugged him one last time and left the room. That was the last conversation me and Grandpa had,.. he went that night... I spoke at the funeral.. did a reading from the book of revelation.. II don't know how I did it ... It was weird only face I saw when I looked out was my cousin Kestin's .. everything else was a blur...

Grandpa was a hard gruff spoken man on the exterior on the inside he was a big teddy bear... he was the only person who got me.. he understood me completely.. we could sit in the truck and say nothing and life was good... he was my anchor.. he kept me grounded... he taught me to work hard.. and to be passionate about everything I do... I'd like to think he'd be proud of me and who I've grown up to be ... it's taken me a while but I think I've finally got it... He knew me I never did things the easy way.. it was the Ruby way of doing things! Gramps and I shared a lot of laughs a lot of great memories ... I feel he left me too soon.. I was angry I still am... I wish I got more time with him... but it was his time to go... He had every aspect of what people should aspire to be ... he worked hard and just enjoyed life... he enjoyed the little things like fishing and picnics and stopping to watch an eagle soar. he was the rock of the family for me and when he left grandma stepped in... The day Grandpa died.. Grandma and I both lost the loves of our life! The relationship I had with him I would never take back.. sure he gave me a swift kick in the ass when I needed it but we respected each other and enjoyed eachothers company.. he was an amazing man he knew how to calm me down when I'd get upset .. he saw my potential and fixed my flaws or just taught me to embrace them... he was an amazing man and not a day goes by when I don't think of him... a friend of mine wants to buy me a tattoo... it will be a tribute to Grandpa.. it will be an old school anchor on my left ribs! I can't wait! Here is a picture of Grandpa.

Love that man with all my heart and miss him so so much! Family is the most important thing anyone has going.. you should appreciate them and never ever take them for granted as one day they will be gone and you wont have any time left. It's beter to live life without regrets and tell everyone how much you love them! You can pik your nose but not your family ... as for me I know I wouldn't wannna change a thing! xx

Ruby

With it being the first day of summer obviously how could I not blog....

Have you ever sat back after losing your temper and snapping and begin to regret the things you said... that you can't take back?
Well that's what I'm doing right now .... I snapped last week on the boy and said somethings that I now regret... I was mad I know and I don't know if I really meant them or not.. as of Saturday he said " it's too late.. what you said was low and you can't take it back" ... sure what I said was low but I just couldn't stop it was verbal diarrhea and ya what I said was the truth but kind of didn't need to be said... We ended our conversation " I dont want to be with you right now" ... "Well neither do I a lot of things need to change for us to work"

Someone once said "My daddy said, that the first time you fall in love, it changes you forever and no matter how hard you try, that feeling just never goes away" ... the feeling hasn't gone away.. I can't eat, can't sleep, I run all the time.. or I'm at the gym... I'm trying to keep myself busy to keep my mind off things.. the weird thing is I haven't even cried.. I'm not a crier over this kind of stuff .. I never have been ... I cry over family and how much I miss them they say distance makes the heart grow fonder.. bullshit... it makes you miserable whether they are alive or dead... I feel like I'm in a dark place again... I sit in silence and listen to music.. I've deleted him out of my phone so I'm not tempted to look and see if hes online or what he's doing because I can't care.. I cant make him come back to me right now... He's never had anyone stand up to him before I think this is new to him and he doesn't know what to do... He hasn't came to get his stuff yet so I don't think this is over... it's just that I wish time would hurry the hell up and he realizes what he has to do to get "us" back I have to be strong and stand my ground and not give in as much as it's killing me not being with him I can't be walked over.

Nicholas Sparks is a smart man I'm reading his quotes and they seem to be fitting for today ....
Truth only means something when it's hard to admit.... well it took me getting absolutely livid to say the things i was feeling. I hurt him bad I know I did with the words I said... I wasn't brought up to say hurtful things and I think that is what is upsetting me most... if my mother heard the words I said to him she would probably be disgusted. I want things to get better... I really do! It's hard not seeing him or being with him... There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of him and all I want his a phone call saying "hey" ... I know he's working 12 hour shifts now and being a busy body around the ranch... The girls have texted me being like Holy he's doing so much around the place.. maybe that's how he's coping I don't know. I'm envious he has all this stuff to do to keep busy.. I'm doing my best to keep busy but my mind always wanders back to him and what he's doing and how he's feeling and how he should be talking to me and how long is it going to be before he talks to me...

There's guys around town who have heard him and I aren't getting along right now and it hasn't taken them long to start talking to me and wanting to hangout ... one of them is insisting that we go for ice cream tonight! I don’t think I’m ready for that… I still want things to work with him and he needs to pull his head out…
Another thing Spark’s said was “It's possible to go on, no matter how impossible it seems, and that in time, the grief . . . lessens. It may not go away completely, but after a while it's not so overwhelming." … Time’s suppose to heal everything they say… I honestly believe it’s doesn’t heal.. it just teaches you to cope with the pain and go with it… you’re never healed by your broken love you are coping and moving on… it get’s old and finally you just give up and slowly stop thinking about it because you’re distracted. Like Sparks said its not as overwhelming because you’ve dealt with it for so long it’s old news!

The greater the love, the greater the tragedy when it's over. … hit the nail on the head…
I'm almost at goodbye I think… he’s just so stubborn .. I know he's not done if he was he’d come and get all his stuff from my house but he hasn’t.. he's been in town I saw him Friday and Saturday he was in town and not at the ranch .. like I said I haven’t cried yet… it’s not quite a tragedy. I’ve always been the tough one when it comes to men… I’ve been the guys girl… I have more guy friends then girlfriends. The boys have been there for me they are the ones when I put in my extensions say “ Umm is that your real hair… get real” orrrr “Hey nice warpaint” …. I never have to impress them I show up in sweats.. hair in a ponytail and no make up and they don’t even blink twice… When I throw myself together they saw “ Go make us some money with free drinks” or “ Okay.. go make friends you round up girls for us like a rancher does stray cattle” … haha I take those as compliments and it’s hilarious its so chill with them… when it comes to me actually liking someone and wanting to be with them… that’s when the boys step in … if he passes their test then I know its good to go… The boys here approve of him *sometimes* because he’s one of their best friends but really the stuff they say about the way he treats me sometimes is ridiculous…. The boys back home.. I dunno what they’d think of him and the boys in Vernon wouldn’t like him because he’s not a rider… I figure if I love him they should too.. but they are about as stubborn as I am sooo .. Im finally standing my ground … respecting myself and my feelings and in return he should too… I was never made to be disrespected. My grandfather would’ve beat him with the butt of the shotgun if he heard some of the things he has said to me… The way I see it.. if he doesn’t fix this one that’s it after off and on with him for the past 3 years enough chances enough is enough…

I understand now why they call us the Notebook…." They didn’t agree on much. In fact, they didn’t agree on anything. They fought all the time and challenged each other ever day. But despite their differences, they had one important thing in common. They were crazy about each other…." That quote right there… that’s us in a nut shell we fight we argue we try to out-do eachother everyday in no matter what and when the other person turns out being right the other one is pissed off about it… But in the end we are crazy about eachother .. this time if we work things out it’s gotta be a no looking back sort of deal and all or nothing no take backs no strike outs …

"Summer romances end for all kinds of reasons. But when all is said and done, they have one thing in common: They are shooting stars-a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, a fleeting glimpse of eternity. And in a flash, they're gone."…. our summer romance started 3 years ago has been up and down every which way but continue watching the movie
"Yes... it wasn't over, it still isn't over." -Noah

Stampede is next weekend.. he'll be in town... we'll see how she goes.. he'll need a place to sleep.. I can't give in.. I got to be strong... I have to go back to being Me... not me and him we need to be to the people we were when we fell in love and from there No Takebacks

Thanks for reading! If you read best be leaving some love in the comments!

Summer's got me reminscing about the good old days... and how much I hate growing up!

I'm thinking back to when I lived in Vernon and we just boated or jumped in the lake whenever we wanted... I would go wakeboarding then hop off the boat put my work clothes on over top of my bathing suit and go to work "lake hair" and all.... Now ... I work in an office 830-5... Sundays 6:30am-3.... it's just brutal... even my Ma gets to go to the Tiki Hut all summer ... tan... drinking cocktails... run in the hottest weather around ... boat.. kayak... ya sure she's earned it .. I just kinda wish I became a teacher so I'd get my summers off too.... anyways k so gameplan for the summer.. or lets just say a Goal/ To-do List

1. Unreal Tan lines...

2. Successfully hit the "jib"

3.Solid sweat a day...

4. Have "me" time

5. Take more pictures

6. Plan a trip... slash save for a big Trip

... Man I need to visit that place <3 7. I want to cook more as well.. I mean I love cooking breakfast I do it all the time however... like pioneer woman I wanna be able to cook like!

8. Find my independence again...

9. Make an epic Summer playlist... consisting mostlyyyy of country

10. Grow my flipping hair out long!

Well there's my top ten I'll add more when I think of it!

I do not wanna be in this office with that sunshining only a couple more hours!

Dang!

if ya read it leave some love!

Ok... I need a push

So I said I'd blog more... I gotta get going here...
Well the kayak was a blast it was beautiful out on the lake...

it was crazy because 3 hours later this is what come rolling in....

so crazy we could see the lightning in the pink clouds... crazy Williams Lake weather!

So life has been pretty good... I guess! Well k I lied not really. But I'm trying to make it that way . Things are on the outs with the guy I'm with.. We've been together for 9 months now and now I think it's done... To be honest I haven't told anyone but he has emotionally and psychologically abused me.. I am always apologizing for things I don't do.. he has a temper on him and gets mad over nothing and makes everything somehow my fault... he doesn't speak to me nicely when other people are around..there's no respect in our relationship every other word is an eff bomb.. it's horrible.. I really want him to change but I dont think he will it sucks because for some reason ( only Lord knows why) I am absolutely crazy about it ( I sound like an idiot)... it's all an act thats the sad part... he's a completely different guy when the "boys" aren't around.. treats me amazingly so nice... so loving... affectionate.. I'm so mad at myself I want him to just grow up and drop the act... I'm feeling so lost.. it sucks... I've been trying to keep myself busy my friends have been helping me with it... I snapped on him finally a week ago stood up for myself and now hes no where to be seen... he's a dickhead... a coward... it's embarrassing... anyways I have been keeping busy.. I have lost more weigh *ahem* down to 122 lbs... only 7 more to go! So stoked on that ... Went for the first wakeboard of the season yesterday... My Wingman of course was with me as well as Miss Manda ( a fellow Albertan.. one of the nicest girls I have ever met... so caring and compassionate.. but a hard ass when I need it .. she's been helping me with my dickhead situation)... sooo first off was successful with my first dock start ever!! SO that went great and then disaster.. so we put a little 14 foot slider in the water.. this is what it looks like...

And here is Wingman so stoked about this little jib!

Anyways so the ride is going great... feeling in the swing of things again (I've haven't really rode in a couple of years) and then I panicked when I came to the jib.. let go of the rope still hit the jib ass slid across it and then fell in to the water... the aftermath is this

annnd a real sore bum! Anyways going again next weekend I hope it's more successful.. and I kill it and COMMIT! That's the huge part because post bail everyone was like dude you had it you idiot! haha! next time folks.. next time!

Here's my rant I had a blast.. boys are terrible... but friends&family are what matter most... like some cowboy once said....

If you read it you best leave some love in the comments!
xx Ruby

keep at it

Well its finally summer... about time... I haven't even blogged in so long... I have a new list to things to do everyday and number one on the list is BLOG.BLOG.BLOG! So life has been pretty crazy lately... my job and just life in general! I feel like I've lost myself sort of...

For starters I fell out of love with my job/career... it's been tough its my first real job in my career choice and my office has no windows and the building smells like old people.. I'm the youngest announcer at this station... the next youngest is 39... he was in high school when I was born... so it's been tough to relate with people. However I'm working at loving it again! Our News Director has been great!He's been getting me motivated and been so positive I'm slowly finding the love for it again! Back into the swing of things! I need to keep my eyes on my goal and get there! I need to get a demo together and then get the hell outta dodge as Tilly would put it!

I love my life in the city I live in though it's absolutely beautiful... I was stuck in getting involved with the wrong people here.. just dishonest conniving manipulating people... they were just a negative impact on my life.. I am working on finding myself again and surrounding myself with positive uplifting people. I'm learning to stop sweating the small stuff and do whats good for me.. life only comes around once you only get one shot at it so there is no point in living it the way you don't want to. I have to keep myself motivated and keep living. I have to stop letting other people dictate how my day will go... I have to wake up happy and keep it that way... the only person in the world who can make you unhappy is yourself... you can let small stuff bother you but really every moment in life you spend unhappy you'll never get again so whats the point in wasting a moment being unhappy. There's always something to do whether its Kayaking ... Fishing... Going for a Run... Mountain Bike... or just hanging out! Always something!!

Another point in my To-Do list is do something active everyday. One sweat session is key! I've lost 16 pounds since I've moved and I want to be down 10 more. I need to be healthy.. I was home this weekend and saw my Ma and Sister and how healthy their lifestyles are and they look great I feel inadequate...I haven't been living a healthy life.. I've been drinking and partying.. barely eating fruits and veggies.. it's terrible. It's a Monday sooo goal setting is starting at the beginning of the week and will continue until I am 100% happy.

Tonight I am going for a kayak on the lake with my wingman.. I can honestly say he is one of my best friends here and is always so positive.. he doesnt get mad about anything it's ridiculous I am striving to be positive and have a blast all the time.. it's getting better.. him and I are going to be room mates at the end of this month...

That's another thing I am on the move once again ... We are hoping to get this place just outside of town.. I can not live in the place I am anymore.. the girls I am living with are terrible ... My bff Vicky describes them perfectly "skids" that's all they are and really I dont need them in my life.. I swear there is something in the water here that makes the females NUTS! I feel like I'm on episodes of Y&R when I even have a conversation with them! I can't wait to move I'm starting to organize my stuff for the move.. so I'm not scrambling come months end! I am so excited to move the place is perfect I need to find out if we get it ASAP! It would be something so positive and I'd have my own space. Gah I'm just smiling thinking about it!
My boyfriend is not too stoked about this move I don't think but he is friends with Wingman so he'll get over it!


I need to make positive changes and I will! Working out is helping a lot too! I have so much more energy and look good feel good right? Right!

Anyways daily blogs k maybe every other day will be a start! I cant wait to vent!

I'll have the kayak update with pictures tomorrow

xx Ruby